*speechless*

Perhaps... Perhaps... Perhaps... I don't wanna know there's a word perhaps. I want an actual answer. Is that hard for you? Ouh well maybe I'm just having too many expectations on you. Somehow, I wanna forget all about you from the beginning till the end. And how much I wish I don't know about you, but, your actions always made me confuse. You never know how much I need to know whether it's TRUE or NOT. Fine. I know you won't know about this. This insane examination was just driving me crazy. But sadly, I lost my faith for the exam. Feel like I'm failing already. But anyhow, it still going on like 2 more fckin' weeks to go on. Right. That's one of the problem that causes US to communicate too. Sorry for waiting me whole night at the camp. I knew how it feels Mr. cause you never know I just feel the same. At least, we could always talk on WEEKEND. Listen that? ONLY WEEKEND! Since you was also in camp on weekdays. Oouh dang! I forgot to tell you about it! Fck! I should have talk to you about it. Making a fixed time for us to talk was just a great way for both of us. Well I'm kinda confuse again, for not knowing what is my actual feeling was. I'm sorry my man. Sutera Habour sunset run was helding again. LOL It's reminding me about the last join I have. I've spend it with one of my friend (well I don't think I'm a friend of hers now). It's quite fun for me. Well.. talking about her, I feel kinda sorry for her. Not knowing why but just, kinda guilty. It really seems a waste for me like, our friendship was broken? I would really like to change everything right into position if I could. But, it'll be okay for me if she'll feel better for quiting our friendship as long as she's satisfied with that. Speaking up about friendship, I'm just a poor player of that. I'm kinda sucks at maintaining friendships because somehow, I never learn to appreciate. Not until it disappear. *sigh* That's why I said I'm a bad player. And she's my only best friend for what I've know recently. Apparently, she's in a relationship with a guy who's a swimmer. LOL Talking about her first love, you'll never believe who's her boyfriend, it's a major shock when you got to know about it. LMAO But it's a good news I think, since it's a good experience for her first love! *wink* Since I have to support her since she's my only trusted and proven best friend (it took years to decide). Apparently, I just found out that I'm kinda like the kind of person who hides their true feelings most of the time. I don't realize at the first but then I really do. What a laugh, living for sixteenth years, I've finally know myself. LOL But somehow, I don't really quite understand what am I feeling or what am I doing something for. *laughs* I'm really kinda stupid at times, what a jerk huh. Ouh well, I think that's all for tonight. Ouh wait, I forgot, I've saved a mama cat and her kitties days before. They are still living well at my house, will seek for adoption some day later only when the kittens are able to live on their own. Gotta find them a great owner! THE END. Chau folks!