*speechless*

Perhaps... Perhaps... Perhaps... I don't wanna know there's a word perhaps. I want an actual answer. Is that hard for you? Ouh well maybe I'm just having too many expectations on you. Somehow, I wanna forget all about you from the beginning till the end. And how much I wish I don't know about you, but, your actions always made me confuse. You never know how much I need to know whether it's TRUE or NOT. Fine. I know you won't know about this. This insane examination was just driving me crazy. But sadly, I lost my faith for the exam. Feel like I'm failing already. But anyhow, it still going on like 2 more fckin' weeks to go on. Right. That's one of the problem that causes US to communicate too. Sorry for waiting me whole night at the camp. I knew how it feels Mr. cause you never know I just feel the same. At least, we could always talk on WEEKEND. Listen that? ONLY WEEKEND! Since you was also in camp on weekdays. Oouh dang! I forgot to tell you about it! Fck! I should have talk to you about it. Making a fixed time for us to talk was just a great way for both of us. Well I'm kinda confuse again, for not knowing what is my actual feeling was. I'm sorry my man. Sutera Habour sunset run was helding again. LOL It's reminding me about the last join I have. I've spend it with one of my friend (well I don't think I'm a friend of hers now). It's quite fun for me. Well.. talking about her, I feel kinda sorry for her. Not knowing why but just, kinda guilty. It really seems a waste for me like, our friendship was broken? I would really like to change everything right into position if I could. But, it'll be okay for me if she'll feel better for quiting our friendship as long as she's satisfied with that. Speaking up about friendship, I'm just a poor player of that. I'm kinda sucks at maintaining friendships because somehow, I never learn to appreciate. Not until it disappear. *sigh* That's why I said I'm a bad player. And she's my only best friend for what I've know recently. Apparently, she's in a relationship with a guy who's a swimmer. LOL Talking about her first love, you'll never believe who's her boyfriend, it's a major shock when you got to know about it. LMAO But it's a good news I think, since it's a good experience for her first love! *wink* Since I have to support her since she's my only trusted and proven best friend (it took years to decide). Apparently, I just found out that I'm kinda like the kind of person who hides their true feelings most of the time. I don't realize at the first but then I really do. What a laugh, living for sixteenth years, I've finally know myself. LOL But somehow, I don't really quite understand what am I feeling or what am I doing something for. *laughs* I'm really kinda stupid at times, what a jerk huh. Ouh well, I think that's all for tonight. Ouh wait, I forgot, I've saved a mama cat and her kitties days before. They are still living well at my house, will seek for adoption some day later only when the kittens are able to live on their own. Gotta find them a great owner! THE END. Chau folks!

Back to posting sesion

First of all, yeah, it's been a long time again for not updating. Felt there's a lot of words tell my dear bloggy. Felt like writing a book. LOL Anyway, I'm still an author of my blog post. *laughs* Can't believe that I'm in form 4 now. And even, 4 Ceria? The science stream class? When days before the PMR examination, I'm so damn confuse and worried more. One sentence of word with ''What if I can't score A in Science and can't git into science stream?" keep crossing my mind all the time. Thus, Science paper II was damn difficult questions. I sweat all the time before realizing the result, but there was a unexpected result that I score A in Science subject! OMG. It's so unbelievable! I can't figure it out! I even ask my friend beside to check for me was there something wrong with my eyes, but no, there wasn't any. Soon then, of course, I'm someone who was so proud of my results man! Finally, I made it. But as an advise, being a science stream student wasn't as easy as you thought. As my viewpoint, entering science stream was like signing a contact. Which were like, suffer before you get benefited. Anyway, it just a simple answer that I enter was just because it was my labour of love. And even, I start dreaming of entering Science stream since I was a primary 6 student. LOL I love Science, I enjoy it at every corner of it! =) So no matter how tough it was, I will try my best to go through all of it. I swear! Having new style of days in school. Having tons of fun with different people from days before. And this moment reminds me of you, my dear friend, it's the first time I studied in a class without laughing out with you all the time like crazy. LOL But since this week, days have going better. Just like today, I've be fooling around so much with S and O. LMAO Especially S, she is so silly that I can't stand to treat her nice! LOL And O, ouh man I love her so much! I MEAN! Not as a lessbo is just as a friend, I found she have so many merit that I've gotta learn from her. Plus, everything she likes was so equal to me. OMG. Unbelievable, I thought I was some kind of weirdo and now I've found someone who look alike to me. I mean, in the same interest in everything. Well it was really fun in my new class. I love it. But one thing that, I'm still not used to walk home alone to the bus stop. So I will be like waiting O to go with her? Because she was always the last one to leave. I hope she don't mind of that. O.O" My birthday was almost around the corner. Still undecidable where to celebrate. Maybe, it would be at citymall pizza hut? Well, I'm just searching for some place which were like can have some fun after dinner. But seems like I have limited pax for my invitation. *sigh* Anyway, it's still under confidential for the decisions. I'm gonna have another headache for this. LOL Lastly, I made fish and chip!! My dad bought me some fish fillet and.. I did it!!! It taste good of course. LOL Well actually, I learn to make it while working in a western food cafe. LOL But surely, I've added some of my secret ingredients too. xD So, I guess that's all for now bloggy. Felt moodless to type some more in a sudden. =) Chau!